no season is wasted.

Maria Laham
Dec 15, 2020
4 min read

His plan is for you to prosper, not to harm you.

I would be lying to you, and to myself, if I said that I don’t get disheartened or mad with God over the things that have occurred in my life. Even though I love God, there are and there will be times where I question His plans. There are many different seasons in my life where I’ve been nervous about where He is taking me or anxious about His timing. People, like myself, assume that to be a good Catholic/Christian, you can’t feel defeated or angry with God. I had this mindset that in order to be a faithful follow of Him, I can’t show or talk about my struggles while trusting and loving God. It took me a while to realize that God accepts you in all seasons and feelings. I had to go through some challenges and hit a low point to realize that:

You are meant to be in the season you are in for a reason.
God accepts you as you are.

We all have seasons that we are currently in and cycle through. Everyone has a season that they are in and it is meant for them. A waiting season. A dry season. A busy season. A tests and trials season. A spiritual warfare season. And every other season in between. While in your season, it might be hard to see why God has you there. I know that I wrestle with accepting that God trying to prepare me and not punish me. As someone who struggles with the unknown, it's difficult to not doubt or question His plan. It is an easy habit to look at others and be jealous of the season that they are in. Just like the weather seasons, our personal seasons come and go too.

After my dad passed, I didn't want to attend church and I didn't want to talk about God. I didn't understand God's plans or His reasoning for putting me in such a painful season. A lot of struggles and pain filled that season but a lot of good came out of it too. While in the moment, I couldn't see that He was using my pain to construct me into a better person. I came face to face with a lot of emotions and life choices that I was putting off and ignoring. It was a very painful growth. I didn't feel like I could turn to God and talk to Him about it. I felt ashamed that I couldn't be "perfectly faithful" so how can I face God? We've created this climate in religion that we can't express our feelings or voice our sorrows while trusting God.

The season that I was, and am still, in is not what I had planned for myself. I often find myself defeated by life and wonder why God allows this trial season or waiting time. I forget that God doesn't want to waste our time. He isn't allowing things to occur, just to simply occur. There is a reason that God wants you in the season you are in and sometimes we won't know exactly what it is. As a human, I'm going to doubt it. I'm going to be frustrated with God. A secret? That is okay. Turn and vent to God about it. You can express your voice and talk about your uncertainty with Him and it doesn't make you a bad person.

God understands your heart even when you don't. He hears your words even when you can't speak.

Prayer is a conversation with God. It can be filled with words or nonverbal. It can be meditating or singing. It can be a thankful prayer or a defeated prayer. When I get mad at God, I tell Him. When I’m frustrated, I tell Him. I pray on it. I explain my fears, anxiety, or anger and ask for comfort or guidance of some sort. Years ago, I wouldn’t have prayed on it. I would’ve cursed and ignored praying. God wants to hear you in whatever space you are in. He is going to meet you where you are and walk with you. He is our Father, right? Fathers want to hear what’s going on. The good, the bad. All of it. He welcomes you in the season that you are in and accepts your prayers regardless if they are spoken or not. There isn’t one way to talk to Him. We all feel differently and speak in differently and God knows that.

If you are struggling or discouraged, please don't give up. I hope we all learn to appreciate the season we are in even if we're scared, doubtful, or nervous. It's often that the toughest seasons shapes us into the best version of ourselves. And may we all recognize that God wants to love and hear you no matter how you pray or the storm you are in.

Even though I'm afraid at times with your plans or doubt the reasons for the seasons, I trust you, God.